Sunday, November 24

Breaking up is hard to do...

Ever since the break up of Digital Scrapbook Place back in April I've been back and forward on whether or not I should address it on my blog. Followers will know that DSP has been a huge part of my life. First as a scrapper and later as a designer. It just seemed so odd that I suddenly wouldn't even mention the site. I owe DSP so much. Yet when the new owner back in April decided to remove my products from the store without as much as word about it to me, I felt bitter which is just ridiculous because in the middle of everything going on my feelings meant so little. 

While the bitter feeling rapidly faded away, the feeling of being lost lingered on. I left my old work place at the same time after being there for 10+ years and with DSP seemingly falling to pieces, it felt like someone had ripped the carpet away from under my feet and I fell into the unknown. I knew who I was at my old work. I knew what was expected of me and I knew I could deliver on it. I knew who I was as the scrapper at DSP and people knew me and many of my personal stories. It is difficult to get out there after so many years and suddenly be unknown. Obviously my old work place was still there and so was DSP but I didn't feel like I belonged there any longer.

This has been a year with a lot of soul searching. A new job, a new adventure, a sense of failure, lots and lots of new people to get to know. On bad days I'll say that all of this has worn me out. On good days I'll know that all it has done is make rethink my life and I needed that. I haven't really had time yet to stop and think about where I go from here but this much I know. Starting December 1, I'll be unemployed for the first time since 2001 where I was unemployed for all of nine days. Apart from those nine days I've worked since I was 11. Perhaps we could say that it is time to reinvent myself. 

Which brings me back to DSP. Recently a merging of DSP and another scrapbooking site was made public. DSP Head designer Lauren Bavin whom I've worked with in the past has resigned and has truly reinvented herself and started a brand new career. I'm thrilled for her and it encourages me to think I can do that too. Can or not - I have to. I wish all the best for what remains of DSP but it is just not my digital scrapbooking home any longer. I don't belong there any longer. I've been around other sites a few times, have a guest CT spot lined up for December but apart from that I'm still pretty much lost.

So perhaps now the long silence on the blog makes sense. I'm planning to do a December Daily sort of album this year. I haven't yet decided if it'll be a documentation of everything Christmas related or perhaps more a journal of the new life that awaits me. Come back on December 1st and see what I've decided. 

3 comments:

  1. Just know you will always have a friend in me no matter what sites we are on. You have always been an amazing person and artist to me.!!

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  2. I'm proud of you jeanet. I've always thought of you along the elite scrappers. Your designs are amazing. I agree with you, though. I feel lost with dsp not being my home anymore. Big hugs.

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  3. I'm proud of you jeanet. I've always thought of you along the elite scrappers. Your designs are amazing. I agree with you, though. I feel lost with dsp not being my home anymore. Big hugs.

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